Life In The Fast Lane

Speed, excitement and power. Moving fast, focused and consistently through any obstacle that stands in your way. It’s the way to live. Up until it isn’t. One day you’re crushing goals and making progress, the next you’ve managed to slide off the track and hit a tree so hard that you forgot how fast you were going.

You try to get back to your old speed, only everything feels weird, foreign, fake. You don’t feel like yourself and wonder is you ever were able to go fast in the first place. You question everything. All you can focus on is getting back up to your previous speed because you felt so alive, so free and in control. You were unstoppable, until you weren’t.

Days become weeks, weeks turn into months and before you know it you’ve spent so much time trying to be what is now considered to be an old version of you because years have passed. Eventually you set down the idea of ever being fast again and you find yourself completely lost.

So lost in fact because you’ve been living a lie, a dream and a fantasy that if you were able to get back to your old self that all the effort you’ve put into rebuilding over the years would be worth it. Only this time you’ve had to set down the idea of this dream and pursue less exciting things. Things that feel so dull ,safe and boring that you go numb. You miss the excitement and the rush. You know in your heart that you were built for your previous life and you find yourself at a crossroads.

Do you continue down the slow path, missing the rush and unappreciative of the pace you are at. Or, do you continue to try and get back to the fast lane. This question alone is constantly on your mind because it’s so incredibly difficult to pick a direction. You’re in, you’re out. You’re confused and perplexed.

Until one day you’ve realized that all the fast life did was give you excitement and nothing more. It was an unsustainable rush that you had to constantly pursue. One that was filled with emotion, excitement and fantasy. That same day you realize that you are more than capable of having a good life at a slower pace and realize that it’s far more sustainable. It’s a bit boring but it’s stable. And stability is something you haven’t had in a long time.

Eventually you embrace stability. Where as before you saw it as boring, as safe or stale. Now you find comfort in stability and all of a sudden you’re less frantic, less stressed and more at peace.

The speed brought your excitement and a rush, the slow pace brings peace and stability. Soon you find yourself moving forward at a steady pace, building momentum and it doesn’t feel as slow anymore. Theres a little wind in your hair, a little breeze going by and you find yourself enjoying this little road trip. Only difference is that this time you’ve taken to time to build a sustainable pace that gives you the thrill you once had only now you find comfort in the peace and progress, not the short bursts of chaos.

You’ve grown. You’ve changed